Hoc Qui Sum
I am a twenty-year-old female that resides somewhere in Northwestern Kentucky.
I am a full-time college student with a part-time job.
I started this blog to kick-start myself into changing. I did not post my first entry until I was ready for a change. I realized this on an early Monday morning, laying in bed, recovering from a bad headache. I had a traumatic evening the night before (Saturday night), that launched me into a series of questions about my self-worth, why I bother trying new relationships, and what the fuck I am doing with my life.
Now, I often say that I feel like I am thirty-something-years-old, with nothing to show for it. The truth is, though, that I am only twenty. I am just starting my journey and I need to chill. the fuck. out. When I remind myself to settle down, it is not the settle down as in, “Stay where you are, things will work out.”; it is the, “Settle down, chill the fuck out, and get your shit together before moving on.”
I am in the process of getting my said shit together. I am going to do better in school, better in life in general. I will be a better friend, but I will no longer be a pushover. I was told that I “bleed vulnerability”. Well, no more. I have a strong sense of self and I have courage and the will to push forward. I will write about this courage and sense of self and this perseverance with life. I will write about what makes me feel whatever emotion I am feeling at the time; I will write how I am dealing/have dealt with it.
I will not be reblogging any other tumbr. posts because this is a personal blog. However, what kind of personal blog is yet to be decided. I will not be ranting on daily happenings, I will not bitch about other people, and I will not be posting my poetry/photographs/art that is not up to par. I do have expectations of myself and even though I will rewrite songs and rewrite poems, it is not to beat myself down; it is always to be better, to be the best that I know I can be, the best I am capable of being.
Hoc qui sum.
